I had a blog post all planned out for today. I was actually looking forward to writing it, but something happened that completely changed what I wanted to talk about.
Most of you probably don't know this, but I don't get sick very often, and even when I do I actually find it hard to make myself call in sick to work. It's dumb, but I feel bad when I don't go into work, because all I can think about are the people at work being busy and I'm just laying in bed. It's horrible. Anyway, the point of the matter is, I'm sick.
Let me tell you about me trying to plan a novel while I'm sick.
I talk to my characters in order to figure out what's going on in the books I"m writing. Yes, I know, this makes me sound crazy. Nevertheless, this is the way I do things. Normally 'talking' to them consists of them showing me scenes or pictures that I interpret. Very rarely they actually speak. When I'm sick, though, that connection is a little like trying to watch television back in the rabbit ears days. If that's not bad enough, it's also when it was snowing outside, so the reception is terrible. The sound is gone, and even the pictures are fuzzy.
It's frustrating to say the least, and I'm pretty sure that even my characters are starting to feel it at this point. My poor Jayne Pheare is in complete distress, because I've been promising her that I would be seriously planning her story starting this week, but nothing that she's trying to tell me is actually getting through. (Though I did finally figure out her assassin name last night, thanks to Eric.)
Needless to say, it makes planning a novel rather impossible. I can sit with that notebook open in front of me for hours, and have Jayne yelling at the top of her lungs in the back of my head, and I still can't figure anything out.
This, of course, leaves me with a bit of a problem. As I said in my last post, my goal for having the first draft of Pandora written is the end of March. That means it needs to be ready to deliver into the hands of my critique group (at least the first chapter) by the second day of April.
How am I supposed to do that when I can't even plan right now? Planning takes much longer for me than the actual writing does, so right about now I'm actually beginning to freak out. Being sick was not in the plan! In fact, now is pretty much the worst time for me to be sick. I need this stupid cold to go away so that I can get back to the important things. Like writing down everything my character's trying to tell me about her story.
I suppose the best I can do it try and get better as fast as I possibly can so that I can have as much time as possible to get the planning done. I just hope that this one ill timed sickness doesn't completely set me back, because I plan to have The Commons in the hands of beta readers by the end of April, and querying it no later than the beginning of June.
Good luck to me.